When we reached week 11 I just felt so close to getting to that safer mark and by now I was absolutely bursting inside to tell our parents, at this weeks scan baby was super active and had little legs kicking around. It’s so strange seeing that on the screen yet you can’t feel anything… Continue reading Sunshine & Rain Makes A Rainbow … (part 3 weeks 11-15)
Sunshine & Rain Makes A Rainbow … (part 2 weeks 6-10)
After seeing that heart beat for the first time I felt on cloud nine for around 6 hours and then the panic set in again, panic that the heart had stopped beating and that I had no way of knowing. I only had four days to wait until the 7 week ultrasound at epu but… Continue reading Sunshine & Rain Makes A Rainbow … (part 2 weeks 6-10)
Sunshine & Rain Makes A Rainbow…(part 1 weeks 2-6)
Twelve days after my 4th miscarriage it was our 7 year anniversary since we met. We very carelessly did the ‘baby dance’ that night. I never ovulate between a miscarriage and my next period I’ve tracked it every time but this time because we weren’t allowed to try for 8 weeks I hadn’t been monitoring… Continue reading Sunshine & Rain Makes A Rainbow…(part 1 weeks 2-6)
Treading Water
In the days following my consultation in London even though I was finding the weaning of the drugs terribly hard, I managed to reason with myself when I was at my lowest points. At night I laid in bed devising an email to the clinic saying I was giving up and I could not cope… Continue reading Treading Water
Beautiful Nightmare
After stopping the progesterone that evening sure enough three days later I began to miscarry naturally, I knew I had made the right decision to not prolong this agony any longer. This miscarriage was more painful than the others and I found myself grabbing on to the kitchen work tops and gritting my teeth together.… Continue reading Beautiful Nightmare
Chasing A Heartbeat
The first cycle on the treatment plan didn’t really go to plan at all. The thyroid treatment was actually working which is a positive but as a result of my new thyroid activity my cycle was altered and I ovulated earlier than ever before. I hit panic stations on the baby dancing front but unfortunately… Continue reading Chasing A Heartbeat
Treasure
During the days following my diagnosis I read the treatment plan over and over, sitting with the paperwork in my hands I felt like I had finally found the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow, I have my answers and this is my treasure, the treasure that could lead to our very… Continue reading Treasure
